swinging consistency

I have this overpowering urge to see all that is not in the visible range. I agree with what economists have to suggest to me that my rationality is not limitless. In fact I thank this universal realisation (of ‘bounded rationality’ and the fact that we know so little) because I feel it, in a way, liberates me. It liberates me from being judgemental. I can never be accused of ‘lack of prudence’ in my decisions. I have a natural defence mechanism working all the time for me.

Okay, may I then attempt to extend it a little further? Of course, that is what freedom does to you; you end up doing more than what was originally expected of you. So I allow my brain to work overtime as though it needed constant scrubbing and re-coating along with the friendly oxygen which apart from regenerating the new cells also kills (rusts?) the unused/dead ones.

And then another realisation dawns on me (I give myself a pat on my back; I am really good at this cleaning and effacing business) – I don’t need to be consistent in anything that I do. I am not biologically and socially built to be like that. I must keep swinging in my constant search for the unknown (hey, I never proclaimed those limits to my thoughts and that rationality stuff; I was only told about it and made to believe that this really was the case). So I guess, I can be proud to be a fickle moron.

But then what do I do till the time I don’t find those unknown variables. Of course, I have then become consistent which I never intended to be in the first place. I guess there is room for every expression and I am happy that I could bring in a worthy candidate called ‘consistency’ into my otherwise highly volatile self…..Eureka!! (I would have loved to have some ‘unknown to the world’ expression of my own but you see, I cannot always let my rationality and mood swings cloud my deep admiration/respect for Archimedes)---- That’s it!!!.... I can keep swinging and still remain consistent (only momentarily though; don’t take these moments to be the earthly ones; here we are talking about things that are extraterrestrial; you see we can’t be as trivial as a ‘recipe of 5 elements’).

So enjoy; tell the world that you are ‘moody’ and take pride in that. We have just arrived at some defence mechanism which is totally out of this world (hey do not ever forget that you are not part of this ill-informed crowd who have yet to realise their selfJ). This (defence shield) is much more efficient than any other missile defence system (of the likes of ‘patriot’ and stuffs like that) that humankind could ever imagine of. This is your armour against all the volleys and missiles which may sound like-- ‘you lazy brat!’, ‘you inconsistent dunce’, ‘you worthless daydreamer’ and so on.

MAY WE ALL REST IN PEACE…. I surrender.

Manik

Jan02, 2009

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