Personal Power - Loss and Recovery

How many times have I made a particular choice in order to keep peace, gain acceptance, or believe that I am important - sometimes without even knowing it?

To give a recent case in point, this last week I agreed for a friend to spend a night in a poor place for me. For quite a while now I have been occupied with creating a dream body. I have been working to realize that I am dreaming and to be capable of doing simple, purposeful acts in the Dream space. In order to handle this work, I need to sleep in clean surroundings.

The previous week, my friend requested me to spend time with her as she was lonely and frightened. Problem was, her place was unkempt and disorderly. Yet there was a secret part of me that wanted to feel needed. I didn't want to see it, so I tried to sooth myself with a lie. I told myself I would take care of her by spending time with her. I quieted the little voice that told me that to stay there was contrary.

To use the terminology of Don Miguel Ruiz, too often we make unconscious agreements. We make unspoken arrangements in order to feed our shadows, our demons, without admitting it. Sometimes the other person's shadow complements ours and a marriage is made in hell. Other times, the other person consciously or unconsciously says, "No thanks". Typically that's when we perceive them to be heartless, uncaring, sadistic, selfish, and cruel. Either way they react, a piece of us is lost. Each time we hand over true power in expectation of achieving worldly control, a piece of us is lost.

The difficulty about losses of this kind is that they are not merely psychological. Koyote the Blind talks about how we often lose something of ourselves through sexual affairs. This type of example illustrates that the loss is physical. It's not just in our heads. A piece of our available energy is removed.

Of the shamans I have heard speak about loss of this sort, E.J. Gold is the most explicit about what happens to those lost pieces. Gold says that when we pick an alternative less than fully consciously, we also make the other choice - also unconsciously. At that point of unconscious choice, we spawn a parallel universe.

A parallel universe is exactly what it sounds like. It is a universe just like this one, except that in one, I made the other choice. Of course, from that instance forward, the universe could become progressively more different, depending on how consequential the choice was. Think of someone who got drunk in Vegas and woke up married. Lucky for them, in the parallel universe they fell asleep with their face in the pretzel bowl.

Parallel universes exist, at least on some analysis of string theory in physics. Where are parallel universes? They interpenetrate one another in knotted dimensions. We're going past ourselves in parallel universes at all times, but normally we have no access to those other selves.

You can think of parallel universes like a camera lens. You can concentrate the camera on your neighbor's puppy or on the blade of grass by her left paw. It is not possible to see both images clearly at the same time. The camera lens in the case of parallel universes is what the Toltecs call the assemblage point. This point is part of what forms our perceptual system. It is the lens that keeps out most of the rays of creation, simultaneously creating our home world, our home universe.

E.J. Gold has invented a device called the Beacon. It is a radio circuit with quartz crystal grips. One important use of the Beacon is recapitulation, the recovery of lost parts of ourselves. Often the recapitulation of the shamans is also called "Soul Retrieval," but the term is technically inaccurate.

Quite a few of us at The Tequihua Foundation have been using the Beacon with Aka Dua, a Toltec substance that can be used to transform unconscious acts and emotions into palpable energetic effects. Some people use Aka Dua energy in healing, art, or yoga, to name a few.

The Beacon can assist us in getting the lost parts back again. The Aka Dua can assist us in keeping them. Call The Tequihua Foundation for more information about the Beacon and Aka Dua: 951-686-3471. www.tequihuafoundation.org